wardrobe

i kinda wondered if i dressed appropriately today but i remember a few people i interviewed with in the past going outta their way to mention how women who work there generally wore leggings and a shirt during their shifts. so i wore some leggings (i have another pair but i can't really find them now, so i wore the ones i just ordered) and threw on a blouse and a blazer. fredrick said to me in the morning, "ARE YOU GONNA WEAR THAT?" and i said, "yeah." then he said, "i don't know if that looks good." then i thought to myself, "don't take fashion advice from him." so i finished getting ready and went to my interview in the morning, the guy who was interviewing me didn't look displeased or judgmental about what i had on, so i decided it was probably alright. i went to sabathani about 3 hrs. or so after the interview and i actually was praised on how i looked and another woman said she liked my blazer. scott runs the place and he didn't say anything to me about it being inappropriate or anything (it's not like i was showing my panties or any body part bare). he just said to me, "AH! STACY! LOOKS LIKE YOU'VE BEEN CATCHIN SOME SUN!" and i looked at him confused and said, "no.. but the sun likes me- so i probably attracted the sun." i looked in the mirror when i got home and i guess i do look a little darker. i honestly don't remember going out in the sun for that long but the sun DOES attract to me. i'd rather be tanner than white. i was thinking on my way home from sabathani about how hispanic/mexican people seem to get along better with black and how when i used to live with my family (seeing as i really only remember living at my grandparents' house more than my mom's) and when i went to school- there weren't any black kids in my school whatsoever. i actually like it better in this particular area with more black people because they treat me like i'm one of them. like i remember at a get-together to remember philando castile, they went out of their way to mention "BLACK AND BROWN PEOPLE NEED TO STAND TOGETHER!" because we ARE MINORITIES. some of my family's ignorant behavior towards black people doesn't turn me off of black people- it just embarrasses the hell outta me being related to such fucking ignorant idiots. it doesn't make you appear "tough" or "smart" being racist against people. grow the fuck up. we're all HUMAN BEINGS, you're not better than someone because it's not like they chose what color they are. i don't want anything to do with you dicks. i honestly grew up thinking white people were better than me because i was only half white. the kids i grew up around didn't help things either. that's also a major reason why i'm moving to an area which is more DIVERSE. i was traumatized. ignorant dicks are probably laughing sarcastically at me saying all this- you see that dicks? THAT'S THE REASON WHY I WANT TO GET THE FUCK OUTTA MINNESOTA. you're all a bunch of unempathetic ignorant pricks. except for joe and jay.